Giants kicker Josh Brown admitted to physically and emotionally abusing his wife and called himself a sex-addicted “deviant” who viewed himself as “God” and his wife as “my slave,” according to entries in his own journals, emails to his wife, and a letter he wrote to friends. The documents were part of Brown’s domestic violence case in which he was charged with 4th-degree assault/domestic violence after an incident with his now ex-wife, Molly. The charge was eventually dropped, but the incident led to Brown being suspended for the Giants’ season opener as punishment for violating the league’s personal conduct policy. Now the documents in the case have been released by several media outlets.
Brown famously described the incident as “just a moment,” even after police documents showed that Molly had accused him of “more than 20” instances of domestic violence.
“I have physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man,” Brown wrote in one of his journal entries. Just below that he circled the words “I have abused my wife.”
Josh went even further in a letter he wrote to friends in March 2014, apparently as part of his counseling sessions with Molly, saying his issues with his behavior towards women date back to when he was “molested as a young boy (around 6)”.
“I have been a liar for most of my life,” he wrote. “I made selfish decisions to use and abuse women starting at the age of 7 to fill this void. I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them. My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero.
“Because I never handled these underlying issues I became an abuser and hurt Molly physically, emotionally and verbally. I viewed myself as God basically and she was my slave.”
In one of the documents, which was apparently signed by both Molly and Josh and called a “Contract for Change” and dated March 28, 2013; he said he “viewed pornography on a consistent basis to manage my desire for physical contact.” Josh writes several times in the emails and journal about his addiction to sex and pornography. In one email he wrote, “I developed into a sexual deviant that viewed sex as a sport all most (sic).”
As for the Giants, they signed Brown to a $4 million, 2-year contract earlier this year, and team officials have stood by him despite his domestic violence arrest and the frightening allegations against him.
source: SNY
